Originally Recorded: Thursday, November 19, 2020

Why Are You Punishing Yourself In Order to Succeed?
Clearing Self-Punishment -- How Your Subconscious and Ancestors are Holding You Back From Success and Victory In Life

THE STRONGEST REASONS YOU ARE HELD BACK IN LIFE IS BECAUSE OF THE SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECIES YOU HAVE SET IN MOTION IN YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS

There is a special type of karma that we create for the specific intent purpose of holding ourselves back in life, and restricting our future ability to create and attract all forms of good.

Why in the world would we create such karma?

This type of karma is created often unconsciously because we are taught to believe in our essential badness, unworthiness, and fundamental separation from "god".

We are taught this relationship to the Universe from an early age. We therefore create this type of karma in order to prove to ourselves and to "god" that we are essentially bad, with the hope that, perhaps "god" will eventually take pity on us and our plight, and will eventually bless us with some sort of good (probably only in the afterlife, though, as religion teaches).

This idea of punishing ourselves in order to succeed is endemic to religion and religious programming, and to many institutional modals active in our world today. This programming is very important to institutions that want to control you. To do so, they have to systematically disempower you at the core of your being, helping you to create a fundamentally dysfunctional relationship to "god". We are told that if we follow the instruction to punish ourselves, then we will eventually attain some kind of reward. "No pain, no gain."

However, this type of programming is deeply destructive, and does not stem from a holistic awareness of the fundamental Nature of Existence.

If we contract ourselves, we remain contracted, until we decide to undo the contraction. There is no cosmic punishment and reward system that will eventually reward us if we suffer enough. We have to open our minds and hearts, and return to a harmonious flowing relationship to Spirit Within.

This programming is self-fulfilling. The more we create it, accept it, and believe it, the more our life reflects the limitations.

The problem gets deeper when we realize that we've had thousands of past-lives, and a whole ancestral lineage that may contain lots of this programming. We may wake up consciously, and begin trying to change things, but until we clear the subconscious mind, the akashic field, and the ancestral lineages, we cannot really be free to create a life that is free from self-fulfilling self-punishment.

In this clearing, we are going to systematically scan through your entire subconscious mind, your soul's records from past-lives, and your ancestral lineages, and we are going to clear, resolve, and alchemize these useless programs that are doing nothing but holding you back from succeeding in healing, wealth-creation, your soul's purpose, relationship attraction and harmony, and serving humanity through your unique giftedness.

Categories of Negative Self Programming We Will Be Working With:

• self-punishment

• self-doubt

• self-destruction

• self-constriction

• self-restriction

• self-limitation

• self-deprecation

• self-hatred

• self-blocking (for any reason, such as .... )

• negative self-fulfilling prophecies

• sense of obligation to create and/or retain shame, guilt, fear, and separation (fundamental mechanisms of control)

• self-rejection

• self-blame

• self-sabotage

• can't succeed, won't succeed, can't and won't allow myself to succeed no matter what

• can't heal, won't heal, can't and won't allow myself to heal no matter what

• can't attract good, won't attract good, can't and won't allow myself to attract good no matter what

• can't have harmonious relationships, won't have harmonious relationships, can't and won't allow myself to have harmonious relationships no matter what

• can't approve of myself, won't approve of myself, etc.

• can't accept Life (Universe, God, etc.) Loves Me, won't accept Life Loves Me, etc.

• self-contraction

• selfishness

• self-centeredness

• self-condemnation

• desire for self-annihilation (emotionally, existentially, physically / literally, in terms of my purpose "I should not be significant")

• negative / limiting self-consciousness

• addictions, needs, wants, desires, vested interests in the above limitations

• resolving the relationships, situations, causes, and all effects -- through all levels -- that are signified by this programming -- through all lifetimes and lineages

False Beliefs about How Your Self-Imposed Limitations Please "God"

• I am pleasing "god" by suffering

• I am pleasing "god" by contracting

• Because of the original "fall from grace", I now have to suffer and constantly make up for that original sin

• Hatred of myself is what "god" wants/demands so that "god" feels better about "himself"

• I am pleasing "god" by not living up to my full potential

• I deserve everything that's coming to me. (negative connotation)

• I don't want to seem like I'm competing with "god" by being too good, beautiful, rich, fulfilled, successful, influential, satisfied, etc.

Subconscious Rationales for Blocking Yourself

• restriction is what I deserve (because ... I'm so bad, etc.)

• not having my needs and wants met and fulfilled is what I deserve

• not being able to express my innate creativity and purpose is what I deserve

• original sin is my definition and will always be my true nature